Afraid

I am scared shitless!!

For the past two years, I have worked in the publishing industry as an editor. As chronicled in my last blog. Am being laid off.
The normal thing would be for me to apply for jobs in other publishing firms. You know, keep to what I have gained experience in. I am not getting any younger, so I need stability. All my friends are settled in in their careers. Some are getting married, others moving on up. Me, I have nothing, no one to love, no money and now no job. The safe option is to stick with publishing. But I have taken the path of madness. I am taking up a new career. Totally new.

I have decided to go into Advertising. That is what is scaring me.
I am currently swinging between believing I can hack it and fear that I have nothing new to offer so no one will want me.
I have even been toying with the idea of starting my own company, but a quick look through the directory shows there exist so many companies already!

The question I have been battling with is this-Do I really have something unique to offer or are my grand ideas nothing but the illusions of a schizophrenic mind? Am I for real or am I mad!? Am I on the right track? Is this what I should do? I wish and pray for a sign. Something to show me I am on the right path. I have nothing but a faltering conviction as my base.

I am scared. Lord, help me.